i will leave the light on for U...

i wrote u a poem again...yesterday,
i don't know why but u always come to mind around the holidays,
(i'm listening to some country christmas music as i'm writing this...
("i'll be home for Christmas" - Glen Campbell's singing)
... i know it's only Thanskgiving tomorrow...but one follows the other for sure...
so, i think of u a lot around these festive times...
why, maybe because when i met u, it was almost Christmas,
it was December 14, 2001 to be exact,
we met at around 8:30 in the morning
(early huh, & unromantic of course, i was there to attend
a 3 & 1/2 day transformation seminar called the Landmark Forum-
that i have to thank my lucky charms - U were leading...)
& to make a long story short...
i was wowed by U,
your charm & confidence,
your wit & compassion, your wry sense of humor & sarcasm...
well...so much for that.)
anyway, so that's why i still catch myself thinking of U,
(my friends think i developed an obsession for U, maybe,
but what's wrong with that?... i'm no stalker, i believer in giving people their space
as mine is most precious to me...)
but a mild obsession maybe, that i agree,
i mean it's been almost 3 years & i still think of U,
not so intentionally but it just happens, once in a blue moon,
only once in a while, but more so around Christmas,
i remember how u would say in that seminar,
that because of that seminar & everything we were gonna get out of it,
we were gonna have our best Christmas ever...
(those who attended i mean, not we, as in U & me...really, who am i kidding,
there is no U & Me here in this story....
just voices in my head insisting that maybe there is...& my friends would chide me & say,
yup! It sure is only in your head, girl!!! - so what?! i say!)

so i wrote u a poem, it's simple & nothing to brag about to Mom,
just a little poem that came to me as i was having a "blank" moment on the ferry
on my way home,
so here goes...

i will leave the light on for U...
(by: seekerjay)

if ever u should find yourself
questioning Life,
if ever with your sure-footed ways,
u find yourself wavering along your merry days,
wondering what is it all about?
(to the tune of "Alfie")
All this wandering,
all this travelling,
all these purposely-driven days...
of over-reaching agendas & breaking profits,
of meeting & mending people along the way,
of reaching new & higher heights, of bigger goals,
shooting for the moon instead of the stars...
when all this purpose gets you beaten down sometimes
as those days surely come to the best & the rest of us...

when your dogma gets bitten by a sense of Karma...
& some days when u stare at yourself in the mirror
u question where are U really going?
& u start questioning everything,
the loss of innocence in living,
the loss of those simple, good old days,
when what's missing from your life
glares back at you with your charming, sarcastic smile...
(i'm sure this never happens to U, you're "Mister Have-it-All")

but someday, if... it ever happens to U,
just remember...
i will always leave the light on for U,
...If, you find that road less travelled by...
leads down to a narrow winding path
towards my door...
where i have waited for U forever...
& a day,
is just another dream...
of U coming back to me...
remember, i will always leave the light on for U...
& i will always be here,
where U had left me... in some previous life i imagine,
at the front porch singing my songs for a Love...
that i felt from the moment i saw
the glow of love from your eyes,
& how i basked in your light,
& how U brightened my darkest nights
like a distant shining star,
so close to me, yet so far,
so distant, sometimes so cold,
but i can never forget how that light filled my heart,
my Life since the moment i met you...
that Light will stay,
forever,
& a day is just another dream...
a slumber till we meet again,
i will leave the light on for U,
my travelling friend....my shining star...
keep shining!

(merry Christmas Baby!)